Wednesday, December 20, 2006
I must say even with all the work and the complaining that I have done this semester it has been one of the best times of my life. I have meant some of the most amazing people. I have this immediate group of friends who are awesome. We have really intense discussions, we commiserate about why where are here, and we laugh A LOT! Then there are a lot of different people who I don't see as often but are fun, and supportive and just great.
The classes have been good too. I am one of the few people who liked my public practice of theology class. We had wonderful discussion in our precept. My old testament class was interesting. I realized that I really did learn a great deal. Research and writing I could have done with out but I did put together a bibliography of sources on postmodernism and somewhere done the line I think that will be helpful.
It has been an interesting time with the friends and family that came along prior to seminary. My parents I think have their ups and downs with what to d0 with this whole going to seminary and going into the ministry thing. Recently they have been great about it. I think they are starting ti get it. And most people who have been through this say they will never totally get that. Which is nothing new to me, my parents often don't fully get me. However, this time is very different. I think they are starting to understand more that this is more then just a job this is more then just a master's degree. My friends are having more of a struggle with it. Most of my friends are really religious so they aren't quite sure what this means. How they are supposed to act around me, etc. I in the beginning kept saying I'm still me. And I am, but I can feel the changes that are happening. I feel that the changes are really good. I just feel bad because I can the end of some of my friendships coming. Not that they will end completely just not be as strong or as present. I'm just not sure how mush of that has to do with seminary and how much of it has to do with just the passing of time. Don't get me wrong there have been some great times. And my church has been awesome with their support of me. I truly knows what it means to have a church family
My relationship with God just feels great. Sometimes to be honest I get caught up in school and strayed away, but getting back hasn't been a problem. I can feel God with me so much of the time. It's an amazing experience for me.
So far so good. This has just been an awesome semester!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
1. Paella.. best Spanish dish ever
2. Pillar candles
3. Peanut butter.. especially with chocolate
4. Pillows... trust me I use it as often as I can
5. Pizza... i can't wait for marino's pizza when I'm home
6. Pastors.. cause I have so many cool pastor types in my life
7. planes ... especially if I'm going someplace fun
8. phones.. my cell phone is great
9. presents.. both giving and receiving
10. pugs.. they are the only little dogs I like
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Sorry for the mass e-mail but I wanted to tell you all about my mission trip to
As part of my course requirements at Drew Theological school we have to have go on a cross cultural trip. I have chosen to go to
This particular trip happens to be a United Methodist Volunteer in
I have attached a list of items that we are brining with us to the orphanages and medical clinics that we will be visiting on the trip. The great thing is that we aren't just sending this stuff to some warehouse somewhere or to some organization where we hope it will get to the people that need it. I will be physically bringing the contributions to the facilities. If you can not donate the actual items and would like to send or give a monetary donation so that I may purchase items to contribute that would be great too.
I know it is the holidays and there are a lot of opportunities to give. If can not participate in this I fully understand.
Please feel free to pass this opportunity on to others who you think may wish to participate.
I will be leaving for the trip on Jan 6th. I will be willing to pick any items you may wish to contribute or you may send them to me.
Thank you so much in advance!
Peace and Blessing,
Here is the wish list:
WISH LIST FOR
Each time we visit the
clown make-up, wigs, costumes etc
Shampoo, tooth brushes, tooth paste.
Creme for scabies treatment
Tylenol for children
Cough medicine for children
Manual in Spanish for craft projects
II. Salud y Paz Medical Clinic in Camanchaj:
Visine or other over-the-counter for eyes
Anti-acids (tums etc)
Monistat for vaginal yeast infections
Cough syrup for children and adults
Naproxine (Advil or Ibuprofen)
Metronidazol 500 mg. (flagel)
Diaper rash medication
underware small sizes for women
III. Juan Ixtan, Patalup Medical Clinic:
Diabetic test strips for Accu-Chek Advantage machine
Otoscope to examine ears
IV. Hogar de Niños, San Sebastian de Lemoa
warm clothing for small children ages 0-17: underwear, socks, T-shirts and pants, jackets, sweaters, shoes (remember, 17-year-olds in
School supplies: pens, pencils, sharpeners, rulers, spiral notebooks, safety scissors, water colors, permanent markers, dry-erase markers, hole punches, folders, tape, tape holders, staple remover, stapler, staples, ruler, compass, protractor, tracing paper, Personal items: shampoo, tooth paste, soaps, tooth brushes, combs
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
I really and truly have mixed emotion as this semester ends. I happy to get a break from all the reading and the paper writing. Yet it makes me realize just how fast this time really goes by. I keep thinking about how quickly I felt my four years of college when by ans seminary is only three years. I am already in that but I'm going to miss it stage. It's wired because sometimes we rush the semester along but honestly if I could go back and do it over again I think i would. I really am enjoying this. Not to say there aren't downs because there sure are. last wed I was talking about dropping out. But overall this experience has been everything i could have ever wished for.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
|Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others|
You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.
You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.
You should major in:
Monday, December 04, 2006
So any ideas of summer Jobs for the sem kid? I thought about doing camp but I don't think my summer classes end in time... suggestions will be appreciated
ok Two papers left to write I should leave the library at about 2am :-(
Sunday, December 03, 2006
And I broke up with the long distance bf.. It was for the best but it doesn't make it any easier.
OK well I need to get to work... Prayers will be appreciated!
Monday, November 27, 2006
My dad is trying to really supportive in this whole becoming a pastor process. But he just doesn't get it. And everyone keeps telling me he never will. But getting him to understand that is hard. The problem is he is really trying and I get frustrated because I'm explaining it as best I can and he just can't make the leap. Partly because I think he struggles with his own faith, and thinks I can be the one to guide him through and I just can't be.
My mom, I just don't know where she is. She doesn't react outwardly that often and when she doesn't I often see it as a negative. I;'m not sure that is fair to her. In fact i know it's not. There is just so much history there. For a long time ( and passably still) there was a lot of jealously there. Never said but completely understood. She too struggles in her faith journey. I think she wants to go there but something holds her back. I'm just not sure what it is. Nor do I think I can be the one to help her either.
I always tell people I'm a product of my parents they raised me to be different from them but they didn't really know what they were actually doing. I am really different from them. It's hard sometimes I really don't know what to do with that. I am happy I am the person I am, it's just hard that I can't fully explain / share that with my parents.
Friday, November 17, 2006
I also checked out the website The Ooze. There is some really great discussions going on there. People talking from all different perspectives of faith.
Just the other day we were talking about constructive theology in class. A lot of my classmates wanted to talk about the dangers of people constructing their own theologies. Yes there are dangers, but what about the good stuff. The developing of one's faith. Developing a deep connection with God that come out of thought, questions and experience. What a wonderful feeling.
I see where Christianity should be , where it should go. We need to go back to our roots.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
That's about all the is exciting right now!
Friday, November 10, 2006
1. Favorite red food... strawberries and rasberries
2. Tell us about the bluest body of water you've ever seen in person.
3. It's movie rental time: Blue Planet, The Color Purple, or Crimson Tide? the color purple
4. What has you seeing red these days? close minded people
5. What or who picks you up when you're feeling blue? I have lots of lovely people in my life who pick me up
Thursday, November 02, 2006
I simply can not get over the depth of the conversations we are having. Especially conversations on race. Race is almost becoming a four letter word around here these days. Particularly for the non-minority students. It sound as though they feel as if they are being blamed for actions that they had no control over. It is true they had no control over them. I agree we need to stop living in the past. But that is not to say that we should forget about it either. Being at Drew has allowed me to see so many side of this conversation. And has allowed and encouraged me to embrace my biracial heritage. To not have to hide or favor one side or the other.
I was struggling very heavily that identity for a very long time. The struggle is by no means over, but not I have realized it ok to feel uncomfortable. Along with that it is ok just to say this is ME, this is Who I AM, I can't change it and I don't want to change, and I don't need to fit into a constructed racial identity. I think that if we would stop trying to put people in boxes as a way to understand them we could make progress in our ( the world's) discussion on race.
Monday, October 30, 2006
I know you weren't looking forward to this birthday, but you have done amazing things in you time here so far, and I know there are many more things to come.
Thank you for your unending support. I hope you have a wonderful day!!!!!
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Last night was my first meeting with my spiritual direction group. What an awesome and helpful experience.
For the past few weeks I've struggled a little bit with my call because I'm disappointed/disillusioned with the organized Church. However, somewhere along the line I turned that into disappointment/disillusionment with God. When really that was not the case at all. It's with the Church. I have no doubt about God or the presence of God in my life.
Monday, October 23, 2006
I not only saw my peers, but I also got to visit with my former professors and our campus ministers. We talked a lot about the direction of the church. How young people are reacting, what we can do change the perceptions of church. I got lots of advice to enjoy seminary and to learn as much as I can, and get as many experiences as I can.
Overall it was fun weekend. I saw almost everyone I wanted to. I did miss some key people (sorry sis). But I did realize the past is the past and there is no going back.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
The good thing is today I start my traveling. I am visiting my one of my College friends in Philly today and tomorrow thru Sunday I'll be in Ohio visiting another friend! So reading week was useful for something.
Monday, October 09, 2006
I struggle all the time with my frustration of being called to ordained ministry, but feeling that the church in its current state just isn't what it should/could be. I want so much to be part of the positive change but fear that I may be stopped in my tracks. What keeps me strong is knowing the God is with me on this. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for that. Sometimes I question the heck out of God as to why I'm here and if I can really do what God is calling me to do, but I just have to remember I'm not in any of this alone.
Monday, October 02, 2006
Lately I have been pretty down and I could not figure out why. I kept saying I needed some type of social justice issue to sink myself into, yet I could not figure out what. However, I realized that I was searching for an outward struggle because I am facing an internal struggle. I am having a struggle with my identity. My father is black my mother is white. I am mixed. Yet my skin color is very light. Most people just assume that I am white. However, I am much closer to my dad;s side of the family, so that is where I would prefer to identify myself.
Here at Drew there is such diversity and a lot of cultural opportunities for all kinds of cultures. IT is wonderful, but my struggle is finding my place in the balls community. It is where my heart is, but I just do not feel like I fit there. And maybe that is just my stuff. It may be all in my head that I am not accepted. I feel that I kind of am but I always feel like I have to prove some something.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Anyway it is a day that I will never forget!
My time at Seminary keeps getting better and better even with a larger work load. The people that I have met and the friendships that are developing are great. Although I have noticed there are very few superficial conversations. Most conversations turn into deep theological discussions. It's pretty interesting.
Friday, September 15, 2006
2. Tell us about a celebrity you'd like to meet.... This one is Easy.... BETTE MIDLER. She is a great performer and has done amazing things for NYC
3. Tell us about someone great who's *not* famous that you think everyone ought to have a chance to meet. ... My pastor. She is a great role model for strong females in Ministry. She is my strongest supporter.
4. Do you have any autographs of famous people? Mickey Mouse and the Disney crew but that's about it.
5. If you were to become famous, what would you want to become famous for? Being active in Social Justice
Bonus: Whose 15 minutes of fame was up long, long ago? Paris Hilton and Company
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Anyway, new title, same blog, hopefully with some more interesting posts coming.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Saturday, September 02, 2006
I think that may be the downfall of current mainline religions. We have put emphasis on our membership numbers and our appearance as the Body of Christ and have not put our focus on building a relationship with God in order to become part of The Body. So often we struggle with the traditions , and rituals that lose sight of what those traditions and rituals are about. They are about having a greater connection with God.
We accept the difference and marriage styles, the different relationship parents have with their children, different styles of friends,etc. We accept that they are different but we still consider them acceptable. Why is that so often we do not feel the same way about a person's relationship with God. We do judge people if they don't meet their friends for coffee once a month as we do, but we are quick to judge them if they don't go to church on Sunday.
I am a church going person. In fact I truly enjoy going to church. I feel that is where I most often connect with deeply with God. But it is not the only place that I connect with God. If another person doesn't feel comfortable in a church setting I would never want them to see that as a barrier to their relationship with God. Because their are certainly other ways to meet God and to a foster a relationship with God.
The community here is so welcoming, open and honest. I have already met some amazing people. I know that this will be another place where I will make life long friends. I can't wiat for classes to start. I have such great anticpation for the discussions and the debates that willl occur.
The icing on the cake was meeting Ben and Melissa from the blogoshere world. They are truly great people and have very helpful to me.
Well I'm off to organixe my apartment some more and do a bit of fun readding before all the calss reading starts
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
I just can't wiat to get started and it's less then two weeks away!!! :-)
Thursday, July 27, 2006
My time house sitting is almost over. I'm kind of sad to be leaving such a great space. However I'm very happy my pastor is coming home!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
The good thing is I'm looking forward to having more opportunities to preach. I'm learning more and more each time. The best advice I heard today was not to worry so much about how I sound or if I make a mistake, people are really listening from the message. Definitely something I need to remember.
Another learning experience with many more to come. Little over a month till school! :-)
Monday, July 17, 2006
Right now though I feel very at home and very relaxed. I'm House sitting for my pastor and I can really feel God in the house. My prayer time has been great. It's not as if there are a ton of crosses around or anything. There are a few and some beautiful ones, but nothing unusual. It just feels very homey and I feel good. I even felt better at work this morning and getting up early didn't even affect me.
I'm pretty sure it's the combination of the sense of freedom doesn't hurt.
But truly feeling God in your living space makes such a difference.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Plus, I've decided to let my hair grow for the next three years and then chop it off and donate it to locks of love after I graduate from Seminary. I always get frustrated with my long hair and then chop it off but this time I'm sticking to the plan. In three years it will be long enough so that when I donate it my hair won't be to super short.
Monday, July 10, 2006
Sermon writing is coming along. It's still not polished ( or finished) but the ideas are coming along. It is definitely a case of needing to practice what I am preaching. I need to take more time for rest and spiritual renewal.
Orientation information came last week for Drew. I'm starting to get very excited, and nervous. I never had really though about going to grad school so soon after graduation and now it's really coming.
Starting Sat. I'm house sitting for two weeks. Hopefully I'll get lots of time to read and blog!
Friday, June 30, 2006
1) Do you celebrate 4th of July (or some other holiday representing independence?) Yes, my family always has it's my dad's birthday
2) When was the first time you felt independent, if ever? Wel.. Oh wait I still live at home... is the three years of grad school over yet!?!?!?!
3) If you're hosting a cookout, what's on the grill? I'm not host but we have a big family one and the grill items are a very small part of what's on the menu.. hambugers, chicken ( both grilled and fried, ribs, pork, clams, you name it it will probably at this pinic
4) Strawberry Shortcake -- biscuit or sponge cake? Discuss. Biscuits all the way with A Lot of whipped cream.. pound cake is acceptable as well, but never sponge cake
5) Fireworks -- best and worst experience worst: the empire state plaza when the ash came down on us Best: The international fireworks competition in Toronto
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
This week has jsut flown by. I did my Friday Five post and just relaized I headlined it the TuUes. edition but it is really the it is WED. wehere did the time go???? This week has been busy with work as ususal. Tuesday I met with my parents' pastor. I used to attned church there and that is where my grandparnts also attend. I left when she came on board. Not because she came on board but becasue I was in transistion as well. We had a nice "getting to know you" chat.
I'm trying to write Sermon number two, but I don't feel as though i'm having as mcuh sucsess as I did with the first one. I'm not quite sure what it is. Speaking of Sermon I'm meeting with my Pastor tomorrow to get some much need help, but I must do some work before I can get help so I'm off....
1. Ice cream: for warm weather only or a year-round food? YEAR ROUND FOOD
2. Favorite flavor(s) Cafe Moca Chip , Coffee Coffee Buzz Buzz, and M&M oh and how could I forget Cookies and Cream
3. Cake cone, sugar cone, waffle cone, cup? Sugar cone
4. Childhood ice-cream memory I have several, Ben Jerry's Ice Cream cakes on my birhtday, The first time I was allowed to get Bubble gum ice cream, and Driving to Greenwhich to Mann's ( now the Ice Cream Man) to get ice cream
5. Banana splits: I have to be in the mood but when I am YUMMY!
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Job number two is at the Polo Club. I'm seating people in their boxes and making sure only those who have paid to get in as VIPs are there.I used to go to polo games with my mom when I was little and I always enjoyed it. I remeber though we were never allowed to go over onto the other side of the field, and I always wanted to. Well now I'm working on the other side of the field and let's just say it's interesting. I am enjoying so far and the crowds haven't been to big, so there haven't been too many problems.
The funeral I had to attend was in Williamsport,PA where I attended college. The younger brother of one of my really good friends from college died. HE was only 20 and died in a motorcycle accident. I was very close to the family when I was in college. Lyndy and I didn't like each other to much when I first arrived at school. HSe was two years older then me and the star of the our basketball team. However, by the end of the season we were close friends. My sophomore she and I were basicly inseperable. I used to go with her to her families house all the time and to her brother's soccer and basketball games.
This visit was obviously a sad visit. However, the family is handling it better then I could ahve ever imagined. It is amazing what community can do for you. All of Mitch's friends (which was almost probably about half of his graduating class of 150-200 kids) were up at the house the day after the accident sharing their memories of Mitch. They had to hold the memorial service at the high school because their were so many peopel there. All with funny stories to share about Mitch.
I don't know how to say this with out it sounding wierd, but it was the best funeral I have ever attended. Not in the way that I was happy that Mitch died. I defintely was not. It was the best in that it really honored Mitch and his Memory. THe music playing the begining was Rap/Hip Hop Music. The pastor was a clsoe family friend and we all knew Mitch wasn't relgious and the Pastor talked about Mitch and his relationship with other people and how he lived his life true to himself. He knew the Mitch would make the right choice when he came face to face with God. He spoke of how to comfort he family. IT was truly amazing and very comfoting. Then two of Mitch friends spoke and then Lyndy spoke. The all truly captured what Mitch's Life was about.
It made me realize that sometimes we get caught up in the traditons especaily funerals. It made realized that these events are about celebration. thee celbration of a life lived on earth and returned to God. It gave me a whole new out look on what a funeral should be.
I'm also preparing to to preach my second sermon in July. I'm still debating on the texts. Right now I'm inbetween preaching Mark 6 :30-34,53-56 or Ephesians 2 11-22. I might write sermons for both and then decide from there. I'm struggle a little with Mark text and I really like the Ephesians text but I'm afriad that sermon will sound to much like sermon number one. Sermon number one was about the inclusion of outsiders based on Acts 10:44-48. So that's goign to be my focus this week....
Friday, June 09, 2006
1. Favorite way to spend a rainy day... Curled up on the Couch with a good book or an old movie
2. Favorite song about rain... Come Rain or Come Shine
3. Favorite movie featuring rain...Singing in the Rain
4. Favorite piece of raingear, past or present... I used to have this bright green rain coat tha had whales on the inside
5. Favorite word for rain...hmm this is hard i love spainsh so i'm going with Lluvia
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
I mean the LGBT community has civil rights as well. Do we not remember the civil rights movement in the 50s 60s and 60s? There were people quoting the bible then saying Blacks were second class citizens and that races shouldn't mix. Now the majority of people look at those arguments and say wow they were crazy. Don't they see it's the same situation?
I have have very close friends who are part of the LGBT community who were very concerned about my entering the ministry. They see any just about all churches as places where they are excluded, they were afraid that I would exclude them. I refuse to do it.
I just don't understand how we got so tangled up in an argument over this issue. I pray we can resolve it.
Monday, May 22, 2006
Sunday, May 14, 2006
I think part of my nerves during the week were a concern that I wasn't going to like it. That I would feel awful about preaching. I know it was by no means perfect and that there won't be standing ovations at the end of every sermon. That not everyone will be so supportive, but it still feels good. I still feel like part of God's plan for me involves me preaching. :-) I have to say that I was worried that this was going to be a big wake up call from God saying you are hearing the wrong thing, but I'm pretty sure so far I'm hearing things correctly and I'm really excited about it!
In a few days I'll post my sermon here
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Right now I'm working on the visual presentation (my church has a very cool projection system where we put up the hymns lyrics, prayers, etc with images to go along) and the search for imagines is ridiculous. I'm looking for pictures of people or hands united together and in every single one the "united" people are segregated. In the drawing races are intermixed put in the actual photographs the people are segregated. It's the oddest thing. There was even one web site that was about being inclusive and the white people where in the front and the minorities were in the back. How inclusive is that?
Anyway, back to searching....
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
As for preparation for the rest of the service, I never realized how much goes into it. It makes the great church services I've been to even more impressive.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Thanks for all the support and prayers. Now off to work on my sermon :-)
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Like I said before, Michelle, my pastor, gave a great sermon. However, up until that point the congregation was a little lack luster. We had no excitement in the call to worship, no umph in the hymns. Even me. I was so excited for this Easter. Easter has always been my favorite holiday, and this year I thought it would be even more special since I had decided to go into the ministry, but until Michelle preached it didn't really feel like Easter. Where has the excitement in Christianity gone? Where has the excitement in worshiping God gone?
Then we have my generation and seemingly the generations after me who either don't want anything to do with Christianity and/or don't want anything to do with the church. For whatever reason a lot of my friends lately have been saying if they did have a religion they'd be Buddhist. Now, I have nothing against Buddhist, but where is this coming from? Most of them were raised in Christians homes and even went to church as children. Where as a church have we turned so many people off? Left so many people behind? I was almost one of the ones who was turned off. I know it was God who didn't let it happen. God working through other people. My fear is that my generation and possibly the generation after me doesn't even want to see it if God is trying to get to them either personally or through another person.
As I go through this journey of entering the ministry I have to ask myself what are we doing wrong and how can we change it? I pray that God gives us an answer and we listen.
Monday, April 17, 2006
Pastor Michelle's Easter message was great. Most of the time when she preaches I think to myself, I'm never going to be that good. I try to remember what everyone tells me: I just have to find my own style. My preaching date has been moved to th 14th. Which is Mother's day. It means reworking my sermon a little, but I still think I'm sticking to the basic premise. My parents still aren't going to be able to make it, but I think the rest of my family will be there.
I never realized how much work went into writing a sermon, and I never realized how much I would enjoy preparing one. Reading different interpretations and looking at how other people presented the same text is really interesting!
I still haven't heard from Drew yet. My feelings on this go up and down. Somedays I know that I just have to wait it out and I will get an answer one way or another, and other days I really want to know! I'm not so worried about not getting in. Not because I definitely think I am but, because I have to remember God is in this. And Michelle and I had a conversation about it last week and she reminded me there will be Nos along the way, but the those nos are really not nows. Plus, I have a couple of backup plans so it will be ok. I'm still hoping though that I won't have to use those backup plans.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
:-). Right now I'm waiting to hear rather or not I have been accepted to Theology school at Drew University and I'm preparing to give my first ever sermon.
I wanted to keep this post short and sweet as I'm sure you will be getting to kmow me as I write ;-)